Officially, this is my fifth day of being stuck at home. And what is the outcome? I don't feel any better, and if, perhaps even worse. Tomorrow I am supposed to go to work and I can't even think about it. I feel all swollen up from all the water I have been drinking in those five days...I feel like bottomless well. How am I going to be sitting in the office talking to customers when I sit at home with shut curtains in silence and I still can't get rid of the headache? :?:

In such times as this...I start dreaming. Lucky me at least something gets me away from hopeless reality...yeah, hopeless dreams. :-) all together as you can see...there isn't much hope for me. But hey, not everybody's life is bright and cheerful.

My friend tells me it was sunny today? Aw, was it? I missed it again. (you can't see much through the total blind curtains + who really cares when not feeling well)

I am still waiting for somebody to reply to my job applications. I guess I will be a lottery winner quicker than getting a new job. And trust me, for somebody who never won anything in her life...this is a big statement. :**:

I am getting tired of being tired. I feel like a prisoner in this little "cage" room I have here. Yeah, that's the right name. This isn't a chamber, room, little room...this is a cage. After spending last five days here I hate it even more.

I am sorry that I sound really negative day by day...it's just all so depressive. I am trying to look on the bright side...if I can see any bright side. The only bright thing that happend today was that I woke up in the morning, alive. I suppose I should stop complaining and go to say "hello" to my pillow. I guess we haven't seen each other for a while...exactly 15 minutes? wow. impressive. lol

And so, nite nite bloggers. I am holding on for brighter tomorrow! It can't get worse than now...can it?:wave:

PS, thought of a poem:

I am in a desert, wide and plain,
the sand's blown in my face,
I feel the pain.

I am in the middle of the Ocean
being tossed there and fro,
and the water's carrying me further,so far,
where it's taking me, I don't know.

I am standing on deserted Island,
around me, I cannot see
one living soul, one single tree.

I am alone in the darkness
waiting for someone to bring me the Light.
waiting for that gentle hand,
to end this hopeless night.